(I do miss having a bump though!)
What a strange few weeks it’s been. Just before Christmas I started getting this crazy nausea that felt just like morning sickness. I even got the metallic taste in my mouth after gagging, which I had really badly when I was pregnant with L. That was actually one of the first things that made me realise I was pregnant with him. I was also super tired, a bit emotional and gaining weight, which also raised the warning flags a little.
This went on for about six weeks and I did a test at home. It was negative, as I expected it to be, so I thought it must just be a virus or something that hadn’t fully developed and I was just being left with the sickness feeling. I decided to give it a bit of time to go away.
It got to six weeks and I was still feeling just as bad so I decided to make a doctor’s appointment. I never need to go, unless I’m pregnant, so with these symptoms I think even the receptionist and doctor (who actually said so!) thought I must be pregnant.
Without being too graphic about the whole thing, I do have the copper coil as a contraceptive so I really didn’t think I could actually be pregnant. I’ve had it ever since I had Little I because I vowed never to have a hormonal contraceptive again, after all the issues we had conceiving her. Obviously it came out to get pregnant with L, and then went back in once I had him (lovely stuff haha), and I’ve never had any issues with it. I didn’t think it had managed to come out somehow so I just wanted to get to the bottom of why I was feeling so sick all the time.
My periods are now usually bang on 28 days. This has only ever been the case since having no hormonal contraceptive. When we were trying to conceive Little I, my cycles were 40 days, then 80 days, then 20 days, then 60 days etc. It was awful. They have been a little off over Christmas etc but nothing that would have led me to think I was pregnant. I had a really heavy one and then a really light one, which was a bit unusual, but they still came!
There was/is no pattern to the nausea. It strikes at any time of the day. It doesn’t matter what I’ve eaten or drank. Nothing seems to ‘trigger’ it. It just leaves me having dry retching episodes about 6-7 times a day. So odd.
Anyway, the doctor did a urine pregnancy test – negative – and then sent me off for a pregnancy blood test too.
In the meantime I did that really clever (not) thing of scouring the internet for forum posts from people who had experienced the same thing. It’s amazing what you can find on the internet when you’re looking things up!
I was 99% sure I wasn’t pregnant but these posts always start to make you think otherwise.
But yeah. I’m not pregnant. The blood test was negative, and that’s a relief.
The weird thing though, is that a (TEENY TEENY TEENY) tiny part of me is a little disappointed and I have no idea why. Yes I am a bit broody just now but we’re nowhere near actually planning another baby. That won’t be happening for a good 2-3 years for various reasons. The husband’s navy career, my job, wanting to enjoy L’s baby/toddlerhood longer, money, childcare, our house, not being prepared to face another pregnancy alone during deployment, to name a few of the reasons.
But still, that tiny pang of ‘oh’ hit me when the lady told me over the phone that it was negative. Outwardly I went ‘OH THANK GOODNESS’ and she laughed and said she never knew how people were going to react because you never know the situation beforehand. She congratulated me for my ‘good news’ and I went on with my day.
Now I’m back at square one trying to figure out why I still feel sick for a lot of the day. I have to say, it has calmed down a little bit so that’s good. And I am back at the doctor’s in a week to see what else they can investigate.
I’m sure I’ll keep you updated on Instastories!
Have you ever had a pregnancy ‘scare’? How did you feel?!
Thanks for reading x