A little late – sorry! What a month is has been. I have NO IDEA where time is going. It’s awful!
To not freak out at turning 30 – so this is the month. THE END OF MY TWENTIES. THE END OF MY YOUTH. THE END OF MY CAREFREE LIFE. HA. That’s a bit overdramatic huh. I mean, I got married at 25, had Little I at 26, had L at 29 so I’ve not been carefree for a pretty substantial amount of time now! But there is something rather terrifying about that big THREE OH. The only person I’ve known that has been more than happy to turn 30 was the husband but he was an old man before his time. He ran out and bought a roof box. I have lots of fun celebrations planned though so that will numb the pain. That or the alcohol.
To accept more help – I am terrible for just doing everything myself. In all aspects of life. Home, work, the kids…I just think that I can get something done quicker and more efficiently without having to tell someone a. to do it in the first place or b. how to do it. I need to let go! Especially as the husband is downgraded at the moment and is actually around for once. I’ll be cursing myself if I don’t utilise him.
To try and get my bump time lapse video finished – oh my days, L is 9 months! 9 months in, 9 months out and all that. And I still haven’t finished this video. It’s just become such a pain as the photos didn’t turn out how I wanted and they are on multiple memory cards. I’ve lost one of the memory cards too so I am missing the first few weeks – not ideal.
To stop being broody – what is this nonsense? So many people are pregnant just now and it is amazing to see. I think I might be feeling broody because I feel like I was robbed out of the first six months of L’s life and wish I could re do it sans Silent reflux. I don’t feel like I got all the newborn cuddles, squishiness and sleepiness with L. He was miserable :(
To spend more one on one time with Little I – I have tried super hard to split my time equally for both of them but it’s proving hard. L is such a demanding baby that it can sometimes ruin the atmosphere with Little I and she will just want to play on her own. It breaks my heart because, obviously, we love them completely equally and want them all to have the same amount of time with us. Once they are older and things settle, then hopefully it will be easier.
What are you goals this month?
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A twenty-something, full time working, mum of two, with a love for all things cat, cacti and scandi related.